Mending Heart

A heart was not made to be broken. It was made to be Loved. That is all I ever wanted, yet everytime I thought I meant something to someone...it was broken. It has been broken a few times and each time I am left to pick up the pieces while the other person goes on with their life like I never happened. How can someone do this? How can you not care that you hurt someone, that you took a piece of them away? This just does not make sense to me. I am tired of being hurt. I want to find someone that I am meant to be with and do this without all the heartache. Is this possible? I see all the happy people in happy, fun relationships...my question, what did I do wrong? This confuses me. After this thing that happened, I am not sure I want someone right now, but then another part of me does. I got a small taste of what it was like to feel for someone and someone "feel" for me...well I thought anyways. So, right now I am mending my heart. Getting it back in working order. A persons heart can only feel so much pain then if feels as if it is going to explode, then it feels as if you cannot feel at all. Next, it feels anger but in my anger I feel something different. I do not really feel anger just feelings for this person. Geez, everything got so complicated. I should of known that I would get hurt, because that is usually what happens. I feel anyone I tell I am bothering them with my problem. Anyways, this other person dropped me like I was nothing and now they are back happy with someone else after just a few days...how can a guy do this? Can you really be so heartless to treat someone this way? I dont understand How you cannot feel something when you hurt another human being. I guess this is my big heart talking. So, now I have to mend myself, alone.....while the other person gets to pick up where they left. I am so hurt, so broken because of this person. Yet, I cannot show it because it would seem as if I was desperate. I'm not, I'm just hurt....and they don't care. Bummer. But in the end this will all be better. The lord is with me and he will help me through this and will lift me up and send me the most amazing person than I could ever imagine.