Sacred Singleness

I have recently started reading a book given to me by a dear friend called "Sacred Singleness". I struggle with loneliness daily. I see all my friends and people around me (especially younger) getting married and feel as if I am being watched and pressured to find my soul mate. Our world is so centered on finding the other person to make them complete, but as I read this book it makes it clear that Jesus Christ wants to be the center of my life and with him I should stand complete, lacking nothing. I believe this with my whole heart. Up until I started reading this book I prayed every night and every day that he would send me my husband, but this book has opened my eyes to see that I need to completely surround myself in Christ and when it is the right time he will send an earthly love like no other. Stepping out of all of my fleshly wants and into what Christ wants in my life is a huge step of faith. It is scary to let someone else have control of your life, but this is what I believe and know that I have to do this, so that I can have complete peace about being single. Recently, one of friends trying to get me and another friend to date and every time we hung out together as a group, things were awkward. I knew many things about him and it seemed he was everything I could ever want in someone. He continued to tell my friend he was not ready to start a relationship yet, but I still continue to hope and pray that the lord would change this young man's heart, soul and mind. But as I read this book and pray about it, the more I realize, the lord does not think I am ready to have a relationship right now. This time of singleness is to be a servant for him...to center my life in him completely. He has given me this time to grow in my ministry, knowledge, wisdom, and my daily walk. I continue to pray and want someone to share my life with but I want it to be at the time Christ has planned. Jeremiah 29:11- "For I know the thoughts I think toward you, saith the lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you an expected end." I know that my Lord has an amazing plan for me and the he has written an earthly love story that will be amazing as it unfolds. I look forward to the day I can stand before Christ, my family, friends, and the church and know that my Lord created this other person and has molded me and them to fit perfectly together, to further his kingdom. I will continue to seek and pray but in a different way...not so much praying for the other person in my life but that as this other person is in this season of singleness that they too would be building Christ at the center of their life.

Ephesians 1:23- ...the fullness of Him who fills all in all.

"God has made us for Himself, and our hearts can never know rest and perfect satisfaction until they find it in Him." ~ Hannah Hurnard