Love is worth fighting for, especially true love...like I have. But last night I was scared, I almost went running in the other directions because of a very bad situation. In the past, I have had to bear some heavy burdens but this is the heaviest one in a long time. It makes me feel helpless, scared, and maybe think that I am not strong enough. But for this wonderful guy in my life, I need to be strong. But I felt so weak. I wanted to run, because that is what I do when I get scared. But last night I stayed because of his love and his needing me to be there. I am not going to lie and say I did not think about leaving and never coming back because I did. But I knew if I did I was going to mess up something good. It seems like all we have done is fight one situation after another to keep our relationship where it is. Like he said we should not have to fight, it should just work. I feel like I'm weak but I cannot imagine how he feels, well yes I can but I not sure how to tell him how to handle this because I do not even know how to handle it. I hurt sooo much from what happened last night, but I cannot tell him because I need to be strong....which I am quesitoning if I can be strong enough for both of us. I feel so broken after this....but I cannot tell him this. But this situation is a new one...I've never been here before so I am not completely sure how to take it. All I know, is I love this wonderful man and I can see myself spending my life with him...so no matter how strong I have to be when I want to fall, how much I hurt, or how much I want to run....I will not....I will fight for him and I will fight for us. Alot of people say that I am so young I do not understand what love is, but I think I do. I am willing to stay when things are at their worst and I am willing to fight for this other person because I care so much. I knew I have loved him for awhile but now I know that my love for him will never go away. I will fight for what I want, and this amazing guy I am so truely blessed with is what I will be fighting for. I need him as much as he needs me. What can I say? I Love him with all my heart.
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