I'm letting go. I love this person so much and I know he loves me but I love more than him. I have loved with everything I have. Yet, I do not get much back. This is breaking me down. I feel like if I let go then I will let my future go but if I do not let go I get hurt and continue to lose myself. I just want to be loved. I never thought that was alot to ask. This man is a great one, any girl would be lucky to have him but maybe he is not mine to keep. Maybe he is just temporarily here for some reason. I want to spend my life with him and we have talked about it. I just do not see him wanting to make the commitment to be with me. I want him to be head over heels in love with me. But he is maybe too young for that. I am a complex person and he just does not listen or understand how I feel. I know he loves me and cares but I do not know if he loves me enough. So, maybe I will let go and see what happens. If he comes back to me then maybe this was meant to be. But letting go of this love that I have for him will break me completely. I made a mistake getting so attached but I just could not help but fall for this amazing guy. I guess I'm the one who has made the mistake of loving too much. So, I guess I will do the hardest thing I've ever done and let go and see what happens.
