Life

Ever had one of those days were you just want to disappear? Today was one of those days for me. Nothing went right and everyone was on edge. How are you suppose to deal with things like that? I know christ never said everyday would be good but why must we had bad days. I love my family but how did we get to this point. We were so close and one event happened and it seemed that it started slowly falling apart. In my dad's case, how do you get to the point in your life where you are so unhappy and not fix it? He use to smile, laugh and cut up all the time but now he is all about work, work , work. He wonders why we stay in our rooms so much, and he doesn't realize that he is always in a mood that we don't want to deal with. He wasn't always this way......we use to have so much fun but everything is so serious. I understand he is trying to support us and pay bills but that doesn't mean that he has to suck the life and fun out of everything he does. I miss the days when I was younger, things were so much easier. I just need to get away from this room....I feel like I am suffrocating. I need to get out of this town and have some fun...I need something out of the ordinary to happen in my life. Christ is everything I will every need and I know he has a plan but I can't help but wonder when does he have the extraordinary unexpected things planned to happen for me. I NEED change, I need a chance to breath, I need a chance to be me without caring what others have in mind. I need something new...I need to get back to being me and stop lettin people break me.....I want it, I need it, I will make it happen with Christs' help. In jesus name.